Warning

This might well be one of my last posts in this.. “diary” (yes, it was never meant to be a “blog”, per se), regarding some treatments i’ve been going through.

Why?

Because of 2 main reasons:

1 - If i cannot explain something, if i fail to grasp its concepts, if the facts are beyond me both as a mere mortal and as a logical being, i will not try to dwell on what i THINK are facts.

2 - This is not (although it may sometimes look like one) a freakshow showcase. If you’re interested on the details, mail me, call me, leave a comment, make smoke signs, scream. Whatever.

MS is not a simple condition. But some of the things i have seen regarding some of the possible treatments for it opened other doors.

I could make the obvious quote about The Doors of Perception if drugs were involved in any way, but they are not.

So, what’s involved? Perception. Paranormal. Parapsychology. Psychical Psysics. Dark energy. Logic and the Occult hand in hand.

I do not have a problem talking about this, in general.

But i do have a problem exposing MY experiences with all of this in public. Some things i’ve heard and seen in the last days are not for the public eye.

Sue me.

I’ll say it again: If you’re interested on the details of the things i will leave half-told, mail me, call me, leave a comment, make smoke signs, scream. Whatever. I might say “doesn’t matter” on this post, because of this: some details ARE irrelevant HERE, and could be hazardous for me if exposed. I’ll explain why later. *1

With that said: first of all,a definition:

Radiesthesia is the paranormal or parapsychological ability to detect “radiation” within the human body. According to the theory, all human bodies give off unique or characteristic “radiations” as do all other physical bodies or objects. Such radiations are often termed an “aura“.

Yes, i went to a Radiesthesic appointment Saturday evening. Well, not “evening”, as it lasted almost 4 hours and ended at 00:30.

I will not say the Doctor’s name here. Doesn’t matter.

I signed my name and birthday on a sheet of paper. The Doctor studied it and proceeded with the analysis.

Regarding energy:

There is one “good” type (called regenerative) - and i am not being influenced by it. Not good.

There are 3 bad energy types - I am affected by all:

1 - Negative

2 - Nocive

We talked a lot about these 2. Many people can have arguments, quarrels, and not be affected by these. I am.

This, connected to the fact that i have a very deep sense of acute self-perfectionism AND criticism/self-criticism within me (which is also affected lately, for obvious reasons), makes my body react badly to something that might be simple for some, like people who send me emails without being able to spell properly in their own (and mine) native language.

My mind (and, affected by it, body) do not claim to be a superior being because i spell correctly. The fact is: for me, correct spelling is something that defines me, and people around me who can not cope with something that is so simple to me, create a flux of negative and nocive energy.

I don’t claim they are ignorant (well, some are, to be honest, but i don’t make a living out of my correct spelling, so it’s their problem) but their detachment from “my reality” (which can be defined as a “mostly-correct-spelling reality”) creates a void, a distance. And that is something that leads to the creation of the 2 aforementioned negative energies.

We talked about this and how i should .) NOT correct people, that’s not my job .) make THEM feel proud of being able to spell correctly.

Basically, try to sparkle their own will to improve. Not to please me, but to incite their own sense of evolution, and be proud of it.

The problem is, most people just don’t care about their flaws, have absolutely no sense of evolution and, as if that isn’t bad enough, they don’t even try to ascertain their flaws, so they THINK (wrongly) everything is fine with them, and evolution is irrelevant. Hmm. I just noticed The Darwin Awards popped into my mind.

3 - Black magic. Yes. Exactly. Also affected by THAT. *1 And THAT is why some details will not get revealed.

My life expectancy - I will not say the values here, but it’s… shorter than what i’d hope. As i am now, something has to be changed. Fortunately, it seems it still can be changed.

I should now make a small note regarding how i know he was not just guessing.

He told me:

- “oh, ankle problems” - yes, i had more than half a dozen sprained ankles when i played basketball (which he did not know about);

- “you had stress problems around age 22” - that’s when i got married;

- “your libido is at a record low”

- “you do not have pleasure ingesting food for a while”

- “you do not regenerate your energies during sleep, that’s why you think sleeping is irrelevant”

- “you feel you’re not part of this world already”

I won’t even comment on the last ones. Suffice it to say, there were plenty more, and all were exactly right.

I was given “tasks” to do (stop guessing, i won’t say what). I was given some new medicine to take. But, all in all, we talked so much about so many things, that my “gift”, so to speak, was enlightenment.

Not “divine” enlightenment, whatever that is, but enlightenment about myself.

A man who didn’t know me 4 hours before helped me to know myself better.

Some people know me for years and still can’t do that.

Thus.. [ Perception part 2 of 2 ]. This marks the end of my ramblings about perception. Future posts will be more focused on facts, the perception will stay with me, and for me.

Considering it was a 4 hour long conversation, this post could turn very long. But it won’t, as i still need to think about many things. Alone.

In the end, i was given all of the Doctor’s notes and asked to burn them (for the obvious reason that so much of me was exposed in that paper, that anyone with access to it could… could do whatever, if they knew how), to which i obliged.

Let him who hath understanding…